Perhaps because I talk too much.
I frequently write about all the things no one wants to hear about, or all the things i feel the need to speak about. I'm no professional, and I care not about what people think of what i write or how i write, but i must be writing publicly for a reason, right?
wrong.
I'm bored.
Sue me.
I have things, single things, that run through my head all the time. Sometimes together, most times not. It really is just one big mess of a thing... My mind roams at every given opportunity, it's a wonder how i end up being such a good listener.
I've been contimplating this whole "single for two years" bullshit.
I've sat back for two years figuring myself out and figuring everyone else out, and i have found that;
a) most women are crazy (shocking, i know)
b) most good men try to deal but ultimately can't.
oh, and
c) no two people are the same!
I've come across a lot of men who secretly blame what their ex's have done to them on every woman they come across, but the very fine difference between us and them? We voice it because we can't just shut up, and men hide it.. shit seeps out slowly as you start to get to know them, and can/will ultimately ruin a potentially good thing.
Let me just say, it is NOT the next ones job to convince you otherwise.
Take the time to figure that shit out on your own.
Don't waste someone's time knowing damn well all you're looking for is a simple simalarity so you can say,
"See, all of you are the same."
Um, no. Your lonely ass needs to take a step back from dating and get a damn grip.
Annnnywho, It has taken my 2 years to figure all that out and actually want to be in an eventual relationship and love again and yada, yada, yada.
It also took me this long to find out what makes me "crazy"
(since apparently all women are some form of crazy),
and I don't feel it makes me crazy seeing as the definition of crazy is, well, crazy..
I have this need for attention (O_o)
Something like an attention whore, only I don't crave it from ANY guy, i crave it from the man i happen to be interested in/dating.
I guess this makes me crazy because when i don't get it i get all huffy.. but huffy isn't crazy.
And really, it only bothers me internally, it never shows on the outside.
And I'm usually over it within seconds of it initially bothering me.
Ahh well, that tid bit of information is pretty much why being single has been my thing.
Everything is easier this way.
One thing though, once you get a taste of that whole "liking/crushing" thing, it makes everything 10x's harder to be so nonchalant about.
