I'm not what you think i am.
I'm nothing of what you want me to be.
And i'll never be anything you dreamed of.
But I guarantee my heart is something you wouldn't be able to let go of.
but it's not for sale.
I make the mistake of admitting things when I shouldn't.
It's like, I tell myself I'm going to put myself and my "feelings" first but once I do,
I don't like the feeling.
Or the reaction.
So..I'm going to continue to hold it in until someone comes around worthy enough to open up to.
and i wonder..
when i look at you..
((shrugs))
I'm not looking for anything although I do realize my words may describe things a bit differently.
Either way, they're just words.
Words that I ramble on with and happen to put together in a fucked up way.
Regardless...
I find myself telling a story.
a simple one,
a true one.
A story I can never seem to finish.
I use to find myself obsessed with the need to know what's going to happen next,
or where something was going.
I now find myself just letting go.
letting shit happen..
I've acually had my feelings hurt more this way because I'm a little less cautious,
but if I spend my life trying to figure everything out before it happens, I'll miss it.
Life.
So here I am, rambling on.
Not telling a tale, but focusing on a tale that needs to be told.
I'll keep quiet though,
and one day I'll find someone worth opening up to.
till then,
(iWrite)
>drops mic<