Frame of Mind

Laying on my couch w nothing to do leaves room for thought.

I'm lacking self restraint in a way.
I know I'm not suppose to do something and yet, I feel so compelled to do it.
I need to find a more positive outlet for my mind.
A better way to breathe.
An easier way to take this burning sensation from my chest and dispose of it
[properly].
I don't know if it's anger or anxiety…
all I know is that it's there.
Lurking.
Taunting.
My heart is racing and all I can think about is making someone hurt..
[A few special people]
And the satisfaction of their suffering will complete me.
[So I need it]

I want to feel complete.

Laying on my couch lost in thought.. Seeking an outlet for pent up anger driven hate.

*drops mic*